Come What May and Love It

It has been an emotional week. I have been seeing my inadequacies a lot this week. After getting home tonight, I broke down and cried. I decided it was time to just write a blog about my feelings. I feel like where I am in my life, I am expected to be perfect all the time. Sometimes I am not. Actually...I am never perfect. And that is okay. "Thou shalt be perfect with the Lord thy God."- Deut 18:13 This is not saying that we will be perfect now, but we will be eventually. One of my favorite quotes is from Lorenzo Snow. "As man now is, God once was; as God is now man may be." This says so much about our divine nature. The way I am feeling now is not odd. We are not meant to be exactly like God right this moment. Someday though we can be. Knowing that makes all of this worth it. It makes the trials, the troubles, the afflictions all worth the pain. At the same time though, we are not going through it alone. I know that we have a brother who has been throug...

This week has been a crazy one. Last Thursday, I looked in the mirror before leaving for school and realized something. I am going to be a teacher? That question mark represents my surprise. I have wanted this for so long and now I am seeing it coming true. It is crazy. Today, I was talking to a good friend about why I chose to go into Elementary Education. This made me reflect on my own life and my own journey. I figured now would be a good time to write it down for my posterity to read one day. I was that child. In kindergarten, I remember drawing a picture of a teacher when we were asked what we wanted to be when we grew up. It has never changed. I cannot say that it has not been questioned every now and then. One fond memory proves this very point. In 4th grade I was set upon being a tight rope walker after reading a story about a girl in the circus. I practiced for hours on our backyard wall because my mom said that was good practice before using a rope. Now I realize that...

A few weeks ago I indulged the world into my secret life of having songs for each of the guys I like. If I get fancy, I may put a link to that post HERE . So my second crazy confession is having Theme Songs for my life as well. These are songs that are constantly stuck in my head and may or may not represent my life in some way or another. Right now I have two theme songs. They totally contradict each other, but oh well. I will share one of my current theme songs (because I know you will judge if I tell you my other theme song). Despite feeling like I am going to die from the plague that has currently infected my body, it is always a beautiful day....*cue music*   "It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling. If we're drinking*, then I'm buying *NOTE: I do not drink alcohol. And I know there's no denying. It's a beautiful day, the sun is up, the music's playing And even if it started raining You won't here this ...

Okay people. It has been a crazy couple of weeks. This has been literally the only moment that I have had to sit down and dedicate time to a blog, but I felt like I need to remember this. It has been over 10 years since we have been able to get all of this side of the family together. Crazy stuff. For the 4th of July it happened that the majority of the family was going to be in Mesa. One of my wonderful cousins decided to organize an ice cream party for the family. And so we were able to get everyone in one room (minus the 7 that couldn't make it). It was crazy and amazing (and hot with the Arizona heat). I love my family. I really do. I have been working on an essay for my Marriage and Family class about love. With this, I had my grandparents answer some questions about their marriage. It fun to see their answers. When asked about how their love has changed since getting married, they replied that they "got used to each other." I am so grateful that they did. ...

The title drew you in...didn't it? If you have read my blog before then you know that I am as single as they come. Yep. I just threw that out there into the blogging world. So today in my LDS Marriage and Family class.... Side note: Yes. I am taking a LDS Marriage and Family class. Yes, I am taking it while I am single. And yes, it is counting as a religion credit. Anyway... So today in LDS Marriage and Family we were discussing how to be a whole and happy single. It was a wonderful discussion and it really made me reflect a lot about my own life. I am happy. I am actually happier this last summer than I have ever been. It is wonderful. I am enjoying being myself and getting to know people. It is wonderful! As I was listening to the discussion in my class today, I came to this realization. Relationships are not just about a man loving a woman and a woman loving a man. It is about a man loving God and a woman loving God, with both wanting to be obedient to His will. That...

So my co-workers are amazing and sometimes we hang out outside of work. Today, during and "Unofficial Mentor Hangout" we talked about placing people in boxes. One of these co-workers loves to talk about sexist and racist comments and how they aren't true. Seriously, this conversation comes up every time we are together. Today was fun though, so I wanted to reflect on some of it.  I love this picture, FYI. This is not what I expected when I went to Google Images. The idea of putting someone in a box is believing in a stereotype. For example, "Elementary Education Majors come to BYU just to get married- they aren't really that smart." While this is true for some people, it is not true for me. However, much of the time after saying my major people will place me in a box with the stereotype. They will think I am stupid and going into a dead end career- but this is a rant for another time. Anyway, so we are constantly putting people in boxes. I know I am...