Come What May and Love It

I was talking to a friend today. He told me that depression was a choice. He was totally convinced that I could just turn off the depression and be fine. I told him it wasn’t. We agreed to disagree, but I feel like there are a lot of people out there that believe the same as my friend. I am here to say that depression, at least for me, is not a choice. Why would I choose to feel this way or have these thoughts? I wouldn’t. However, I do have a choice in something. I have a choice in how I react. For people who have not been depressed before, know that it is a dark place. Sometimes you cannot feel the light or see any hope. Even with the view of the Gospel, some days are really hard. Elder Holland said the following “But today I am speaking of something more serious, of an affliction so severe that it significantly restricts a person’s ability to function fully, a crater in the mind so deep that no one can responsibility suggest it would surely go away if the victims would just sq...

Last week I was watching General Conference. First off, AMAZING! I always love this time of year. And I always love Elder Holland's talks. When he got up to speak in the Saturday afternoon session, I knew it was going to be good. If you have not heard or read his talk yet, please click here . Elder Holland talked a lot about depression and the real struggle that goes along with it. I thought that it might be time to share my story with the world. When I went into ninth grade, everything was going great! I had friends, family, and faith. What more did I need? Then my world came crashing down. That year, I found out that I had an acute hearing loss. The doctors had no idea how fast my hearing would disappear, but I left the office that day with an amplifier and a note telling my teachers that I needed to sit in the front of the class. This news hit me hard. I had always felt the need to be perfect all the time. Isn't that what being a Mormon meant after all? The idea that I w...

I really need to Blog more often. It has been way too long since I have blogged, and I have had several things to say. I must admit that I have written several blog posts, but they were too private to post on the internet. So this one is going to be updating you on everything, or as the title says: Six months ago, an amazing announcement was made. President Thomas S. Monson announced that the mission age has changed from 19 to 18 for young men and 21 to 19 for young women. This has changed everything here at BYU. Many young women have responded to this call and half of my ward is now in the mission field! This includes two of my bestest friends are going on mission. Sister Julia Taylor (left) is going to serve in Nicaragua. She left last Tuesday to go to the Guatemala MTC. Sister Anna Katie Giberson (right) is going to serve in Portugal. She leaves Wednesday to enter the Provo MTC. I am so proud of these two young women. I wish that I could be out there with t...