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I am Okay

It has been an emotional week.

I have been seeing my inadequacies a lot this week. After getting home tonight, I broke down and cried. I decided it was time to just write a blog about my feelings.

I feel like where I am in my life, I am expected to be perfect all the time. Sometimes I am not. Actually...I am never perfect. And that is okay.
"Thou shalt be perfect with the Lord thy God."- Deut 18:13
This is not saying that we will be perfect now, but we will be eventually. One of my favorite quotes is from Lorenzo Snow.
"As man now is, God once was; as God is now man may be."
This says so much about our divine nature. The way I am feeling now is not odd. We are not meant to be exactly like God right this moment. Someday though we can be. Knowing that makes all of this worth it. It makes the trials, the troubles, the afflictions all worth the pain.

At the same time though, we are not going through it alone. I know that we have a brother who has been through all of this before. He understands everything we are going through. He wants us to reach us out to Him. We cannot do it alone. If our Heavenly Father wanted to do it alone and knew we could be perfect, He would not have sacrificed His Only Begotten Son Jesus Christ. We are expected to use the source that we are given. We can take upon us the Atonement of Jesus Christ. This is something I am still learning how to do more effectively. I must say though, that I do know that Jesus Christ is our Savior. I know that He has suffered for our sins, afflictions, trials, and troubles. I am so grateful for this fact.

Okay, people, so this was more for me. These thoughts are random and scattered, but I just wanted to be able to work through some things and it has actually been quite effective.

Even though life is hard, I still want to maintain a positive attitude. So...
Come what may and love it.

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