Come What May and Love It

I have never really had the opportunity to be myself. I have always felt the need to hide who I really am because of those around me. The first time I remember doing this was in third grade. My third grade teacher was strict. This is much more than just the normal "mean teacher"- she would threaten to hang us by our toenails in the corner if we did not behave. Before third grade, I was very outgoing, but I lost that because of fear. It just went deeper and deeper as the years went on. My freshman year of college, I told myself that I was going to start new. I tried to be myself, but it was really hard. Then with roommate issues, I turned back into my shell. I hid who I was. The next year, I moved in with the"friends" that I had made Freshman year. 4 girls who I thought I could trust through everything. Things happened and by the time winter semester came, my two best friends moved out to go on missions and the other two girls who I had known since Freshman year ...

Hello again! So here is my third crazy confession (for some reason all of my confessions have to do with music...weird). I am that person. I get into my car when I am driving all alone, turn up the radio as loud as my ears can stand, and I dance. I will be at stop lights and see people staring, but I don't care. This is weird, because if you know me I am not a dancer. I am the awkward person at parties who kind of sways back and forth. For some reason though, I am willing to make a fool out of myself when I am alone in my car. Here is the song that I was rocking out to tonight while in the drive thru at Sonic (Half-priced Shakes after 8!): This all being said, I typically do not dance when people are in the car with me or when I am in another person's car. So don't expect me to dance on demand. I won't do it. But also do not be surprised if I start dancing. Just saying... Maybe this isn't the craziest confession. I am hoping that people come forward sayi...

A few weeks ago I indulged the world into my secret life of having songs for each of the guys I like. If I get fancy, I may put a link to that post HERE . So my second crazy confession is having Theme Songs for my life as well. These are songs that are constantly stuck in my head and may or may not represent my life in some way or another. Right now I have two theme songs. They totally contradict each other, but oh well. I will share one of my current theme songs (because I know you will judge if I tell you my other theme song). Despite feeling like I am going to die from the plague that has currently infected my body, it is always a beautiful day....*cue music*   "It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling. If we're drinking*, then I'm buying *NOTE: I do not drink alcohol. And I know there's no denying. It's a beautiful day, the sun is up, the music's playing And even if it started raining You won't here this ...

Okay...so I have a weird confession to make.   Every time I like a different guy, I get a 'song'. A song that makes me think of him and makes my heart flutter every time I hear it. A song that is attached with all of the memories. When I hear an old song, it makes all those memories come rushing back. It is a blessing and a curse.   So what song is in my head right now?