Come What May and Love It

I was talking to a friend today. He told me that depression was a choice. He was totally convinced that I could just turn off the depression and be fine. I told him it wasn’t. We agreed to disagree, but I feel like there are a lot of people out there that believe the same as my friend. I am here to say that depression, at least for me, is not a choice. Why would I choose to feel this way or have these thoughts? I wouldn’t. However, I do have a choice in something. I have a choice in how I react. For people who have not been depressed before, know that it is a dark place. Sometimes you cannot feel the light or see any hope. Even with the view of the Gospel, some days are really hard. Elder Holland said the following “But today I am speaking of something more serious, of an affliction so severe that it significantly restricts a person’s ability to function fully, a crater in the mind so deep that no one can responsibility suggest it would surely go away if the victims would just sq...

A few weeks ago, I had a little mini breakdown. I was observing a kindergarten classroom and it hit me. In a year, I am going to be a teacher. In a year, that will be me in front of those children. Granted I will probably not be teaching kindergarten, but I was still just struck by fear. Can I do this? Is this really what I want to do? I had a good friend just talk with me about my life goals and decisions. He mentored me in a way that I really needed. I am grateful I work at a place with so many mentors right on hand to help out in times like this. Anyway- so these questions have been on my mind recently: What am I meant to do? Where am I meant to be? Who am I meant to be? I have been unsure about a lot of things in my life recently and that drives me crazy. I am slightly a control freak who likes to have a nice neat plan laid out. It scares me that I don't know where I am going to be in a year. At the General Relief Society Meeting yesterday, President Monson reminde...

I did this as part of my personal scripture study, but I thought that I would share it here.  I am another year older, but here is 20 things that I have a testimony of for you to enjoy. Have a wonderful day! Jesus Christ is our Savior and Redeemer. He suffered for our sins, our trials, and our troubles. Families can be together of. I am so grateful that I got stuck with a great family for all eternity. I can not imagine even one day without them! Heavenly Father is very aware of our circumstances. He puts us into the situations that we need to be put into. Heavenly Father answers prayers. They may not be loud answers, but quiet feelings. Joseph Smith translated the Book of Mormon. I am so grateful for this. Going through this challenge is making me even more grateful. The Book of Mormon is true. It is filled with all the right stuff. :) President Monson is a true prophet. He speaks the words of God to us today. I am grateful for this connection to God. The Priesthood is r...