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Trust in the Lord

Today is the last day of classes! I cannot believe that I have already made it this far. This morning I was reminded about where I was a year ago...

About a year ago I found out that I did not get a scholarship through BYU. This devistated me! I had worked so hard all through high school and graduated as valedictorian just to not get a scholarship to my dream school. I found out about this during my English class and right after that class was seminary...it was the one and only time that I ditched seminary because I just had to go home and cry. At the time I didn't understand.

If I did get a scholarship I would have been a lot more worried and concerned about school and grades. While I am still trying my hardest (and still getting good grades :) ) I would have been locked up in my room all the time. Every test would bring with it anxiety and a lot of stress. I would not have been able to hang out with my friends as much. I probably would not have taken the Divine Comedy position. Looking back all all this, I realize that for now it is better thing to not have a scholarship. It makes me value money a lot more because I am the one paying for my education. I am able to have a fun time with my friends without being a complete mess. I also got to become part of one of the most amazing group of people on campus and put on shows that bring joy to other people's lives.

Sometimes, I still wish I had a scholarship. But I am in a lot better place not having one right now. Maybe someday I will get a scholarship and when I do I know that it will be on Heavenly Father's timing and not my own.

As I am finishing up my Freshman year of college, I am so grateful for all the experiences I have had. I am also very grateful for my testimony that has been strenghened over the past 8 months. 8 months ago I thought I knew what it meant to trust in the Lord, but it is a lesson that I am still learning. I am just so grateful that I have been able to make it through this year and I know that it is because I have put a lot of trust in Heavenly Father and His plan for me.

Come what may and love it! :)
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