A few weeks ago, I had a little mini breakdown. I was observing a kindergarten classroom and it hit me. In a year, I am going to be a teacher. In a year, that will be me in front of those children. Granted I will probably not be teaching kindergarten, but I was still just struck by fear. Can I do this? Is this really what I want to do?
I had a good friend just talk with me about my life goals and decisions. He mentored me in a way that I really needed. I am grateful I work at a place with so many mentors right on hand to help out in times like this.
Anyway- so these questions have been on my mind recently:
I have been unsure about a lot of things in my life recently and that drives me crazy. I am slightly a control freak who likes to have a nice neat plan laid out. It scares me that I don't know where I am going to be in a year. At the General Relief Society Meeting yesterday, President Monson reminded me of something that I really needed to hear: Wherever we are in life, we ALL have challenges and struggles.
I had been feeling like I was the only one who did not have my life figured out. But apparently everyone has feelings like this too. President Monson also shared a wonderful quote:
As I was reflecting on this broadcast, I fell in love with the analogy that Sister Linda S. Reeves (2nd Counselor of the RS Presidency) shared. I took it to a whole new level.
She talked about the Provo Tabernacle. It was a beautiful building in Downtown Provo. It was a marker. I remember my Grandma telling stories about it when I was little.
In 2010, a fire started and gutted the whole building. It was completely shocking and sad. I remember watching videos online and just being distraught because this beautiful building was being destroyed. I can just imagine how the people of Provo felt as they watched this landmark be destroyed. Sister Reeves talked about how people were left questioning why Heavenly Father would let this happen. Surely He could have stopped the fire. But why destroy something that meant to so much?
Then, in 2011, President Monson made an announcement that had the whole conference center gasping. The Provo Tabernacle would be changed into a temple. Suddenly, the fire made a little more sense. People could see that Heavenly Father had a plan in mind.
Now to the analogy that I kind of take to the next level. We are like the Provo Tabernacle. We are born to this earth, beautiful and with a glorious purpose. Sometimes, we go through trials. We feel as if we are being burned to the ground and all we can do is stand back and watch while asking the question "Why?" to Heavenly Father. Even Joseph Smith in one of his darkest moments questioned "Oh God, Where art thou?"
Sometimes, life doesn't make sense. But Heavenly Father will not leave us in the ashes. He has a different plan in mind. My trials might be hurting now. I may not understand everything that is happening. I may only be able to see the flames and the damage, but it will eventually make sense. Heavenly Father has a plan to make me into something more than I am. Something that I never even dreamed of being.
Even after the trial is over and we are progressing for that end product, I am not on solid ground. I have to rely on faith that everything will work out. Right now the Provo Tabernacle is on stilts. It is kind of scary to look at this building only being supported by some metal bars instead of solid ground. A lot of times after our own trials we are not on solid ground for a while. But Jesus Christ can be that support for us. He can make up the difference between where we are standing and the solid ground. We just have to trust Him.
As I look at my life, I can see my own metaphorical fires, but I can also see the building up taking place. That being said, it doesn't mean that there won't be other little fires and help to mold and shape me in the right direction, but I do know that Heavenly Father has a plan to build our lives into beautiful temples. Coming back to the quote that I shared earlier. Heavenly Father does love us. "That love never changes." I am so grateful for a Heavenly Father who has my best interest in mind.
Even though we may not be able to see the whole plan just yet, we just need to remember...
Come what may and love it.
I had a good friend just talk with me about my life goals and decisions. He mentored me in a way that I really needed. I am grateful I work at a place with so many mentors right on hand to help out in times like this.
Anyway- so these questions have been on my mind recently:
What am I meant to do?
Where am I meant to be?
Who am I meant to be?
I have been unsure about a lot of things in my life recently and that drives me crazy. I am slightly a control freak who likes to have a nice neat plan laid out. It scares me that I don't know where I am going to be in a year. At the General Relief Society Meeting yesterday, President Monson reminded me of something that I really needed to hear: Wherever we are in life, we ALL have challenges and struggles.
I had been feeling like I was the only one who did not have my life figured out. But apparently everyone has feelings like this too. President Monson also shared a wonderful quote:
"Heavenly Father loves you- each of you. That love never changes."Man! Isn't it just amazing to have Prophets on this earth who can remind us of these things?
As I was reflecting on this broadcast, I fell in love with the analogy that Sister Linda S. Reeves (2nd Counselor of the RS Presidency) shared. I took it to a whole new level.She talked about the Provo Tabernacle. It was a beautiful building in Downtown Provo. It was a marker. I remember my Grandma telling stories about it when I was little.
In 2010, a fire started and gutted the whole building. It was completely shocking and sad. I remember watching videos online and just being distraught because this beautiful building was being destroyed. I can just imagine how the people of Provo felt as they watched this landmark be destroyed. Sister Reeves talked about how people were left questioning why Heavenly Father would let this happen. Surely He could have stopped the fire. But why destroy something that meant to so much?
Then, in 2011, President Monson made an announcement that had the whole conference center gasping. The Provo Tabernacle would be changed into a temple. Suddenly, the fire made a little more sense. People could see that Heavenly Father had a plan in mind.
Now to the analogy that I kind of take to the next level. We are like the Provo Tabernacle. We are born to this earth, beautiful and with a glorious purpose. Sometimes, we go through trials. We feel as if we are being burned to the ground and all we can do is stand back and watch while asking the question "Why?" to Heavenly Father. Even Joseph Smith in one of his darkest moments questioned "Oh God, Where art thou?"Sometimes, life doesn't make sense. But Heavenly Father will not leave us in the ashes. He has a different plan in mind. My trials might be hurting now. I may not understand everything that is happening. I may only be able to see the flames and the damage, but it will eventually make sense. Heavenly Father has a plan to make me into something more than I am. Something that I never even dreamed of being.
As I look at my life, I can see my own metaphorical fires, but I can also see the building up taking place. That being said, it doesn't mean that there won't be other little fires and help to mold and shape me in the right direction, but I do know that Heavenly Father has a plan to build our lives into beautiful temples. Coming back to the quote that I shared earlier. Heavenly Father does love us. "That love never changes." I am so grateful for a Heavenly Father who has my best interest in mind.
Even though we may not be able to see the whole plan just yet, we just need to remember...
Come what may and love it.
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