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For a Reason

I really should be studying. I should not be sitting here blogging. I should not have made a batch of cake pops for a party I am throwing tomorrow. I should not be browsing Facebook while watching Netflix in the background. I shouldn't have gone out with co-workers for dinner (though I regret nothing).  I am such a wonderful example of a good student, right? Yeah, wrong.
 
Side Note: I discovered today that it is impossible for me to study. Really. It is. I am having the hardest time sitting down and reviewing a whole term's worth of material. I honestly would rather be cleaning my apartment right now then studying for this test. Crazy, right. Anyway...I will settle for blogging.
 
One of my best friends left on his mission today. I am so proud of this guy. I know that he has worked through some trials to get where he is and I am so happy for him. But I am so sad at the same time. This guy was one of my best friends in high school. He helped me get through a lot of different junk that was going on in my life and I am so grateful that I met him.
 
Also, one of my very best friends is getting ready to leave on her mission in a month. Again, she has gotten me through so much. We have gone through too many classes together to even remember where I first met her, but I got to know her best through work. I am so grateful that I met her, as well.
 
In the first situation, I wasn't supposed to be in the class with my guy friend. I was supposed to be in AP Art History. However, the class got canceled due to low enrollment. So I had to find another class. I ended up choosing Biotechnology. I was angry at first that I could not be in the Art History class that I originally wanted. But looking back, I am so grateful for the opportunity to be in that class.  I met amazing people and learned amazing things. I grew in ways that I did not know I needed until now.

In the second situation, I was supposed to have another job. I was supposed to be a TA. That had been my plan. However, I got two different offers. I could be a TA or a Peer Mentor. After praying about it, I chose the lower paying job, but I do not regret it at all. I love my job. Again, I met amazing people and learned amazing things. I have grown incredibly.

I could go on explaining each person that I have met in my life and how I should not have met them. It is funny how life works that way. I really believe this song.

 
"I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led to those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return.
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you..."

So unlike Glinda, I do believe that we are led to those who can help us grow most. I do not think that it is coincidence that the Art History class got canceled. I don't think it is coincidence that I had the promoting to take a job as a Peer Mentor instead of a TA.

I truly believe that Heavenly Father puts experiences into our path that will help us most to grow. It has been that God will not try us more than we are able to bear, but I think that it applies to good things too. I think that God will give us good experiences to grow into the person we are supposed to be as well.

Because apparently I like writing about my dating life, I am going to apply it to that as well. Feel free to skip the next paragraph if you don't want to read about it. I have liked a lot of guys in my 20 years of life, but I have never been in a relationship. And obviously I am not married yet.  After things don't work out with a guy for one way or the other, I always ask the question "what have I learned from this?" I think this is the mentor coming out in me. :) Each guy has changed me just a little bit. I believe that I have been changed for the better. I learned to not wear my heart on my sleeve. I learned not to fall fast and hard. I have learned that there are good guys out there and I shouldn't settle. I learned what I am looking for in a guy.

I am so grateful for my life. It has not always been easy. I don't claim to be perfect. But overall, life has been good. I am grateful to be alive! I am grateful that I have you in my life. I am sure there is a reason that I was supposed to meet you. If you are truly curious about why I think I was supposed to meet you, ask me. I am sure I have a reason :)

So these are the thoughts that have been going through my head when I should be studying.

With finals tomorrow, this is even more pertinent:
Come what may and love it!

Now off to study.

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