Sweet Home Arizona

Some days, you believe that you will never move on.

Other days, you realize you have.

It is an amazing feeling.

I have been missing this recently. I miss the dry dessert landscape. I really never thought that I would say that. This last Christmas, I started crying when I saw a cactus for the first time in 5 months. Really. It is sad. Now it has been over 6 months since being in Arizona. When I left this dessert wasteland three years ago, I swore that I would not miss it. But I do.

Another thing I miss? Monsoons. Rain does not smell as good here in Utah. Utah rain smells like mildew. It is gross. Arizona rain is one of my favorite scents in the world. I am going home in a few weeks and I hope it rains. I hope we get a huge storm so that I can just stand in it and smell the rain. I want to soak in as much of Arizona as I can in 3 days. Please...let it rain

This is a random post, I know...but I just wanted to blog what is on my mind.

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